Good question. From what you describe — strong religious guilt around intimacy, intrusive thoughts, fear of sin/shirk, mental “chaos” — a few psychological-religious conditions seem relevant. Here are some possibilities, and what they mean:
Possible Conditions / Concepts
Scrupulosity (Religious OCD)
This is a subtype of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) where the obsessions are religious or moral.
ocdnewhampshire.org
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Simply Psychology
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People with scrupulosity fear that their thoughts or actions are sinful; they may constantly worry about offending God, committing blasphemy, or failing to be pure.
Rula
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Center for OCD and Related Disorders
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Compulsions (ways to relieve the anxiety) can include excessive prayer, repeated confession, seeking reassurance from religious authorities, or mental rituals.
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Biblical Counseling Center
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In your case, the “teasing in brain / mind / gut” and the intense fear around having intimacy might be part of these obsessive thoughts and the accompanying guilt or anxiety.
Intrusive Thoughts
Intrusive thoughts are unwanted, repetitive thoughts or images that can cause distress.
Wikipedia
In religious contexts, these can be blasphemous thoughts, fears of sinning, or sexual thoughts that feel “forbidden” because of religious beliefs.
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These thoughts don’t necessarily mean someone wants to do something immoral; rather, they are anxious, repetitive, and distressing.
Sexual Repression
This is a more general psychological state where a person feels guilt, shame, or distress about their sexual desires or impulses.
Wikipedia
Religion (or strict moral upbringing) can strongly contribute to this repression. When sexual feelings are “bad” in someone’s belief system, they may be suppressed, causing internal conflict and mental distress.
Dhat Syndrome (Culture-bound)
This is more specific to South Asia. In Dhat syndrome, individuals (usually men) believe they are losing “vital fluid” (semen) and feel guilt or weakness.
Wikipedia
While not exactly the same as religious guilt about intimacy, it does show how culture (including religious ideas) can shape how people feel about sexual health and intimacy, leading to anxiety and psychosomatic symptoms.
Interpretation for Your Description
Your description of “so much chaos headache … in brain mind body gut” suggests intrusive thoughts + anxiety rather than just regular moral concern.
The mention of “harsh straight copious conqueror” could be metaphoric for how overpowering and distressing these thoughts feel, which is common in OCD-like conditions.
The religious dimension (“shirk to go near female or have intimacy”) strongly points toward scrupulosity, because the fear is not just of physical sin but of spiritual consequences.
What Can Help / What to Do
Talk to a Mental Health Professional: A psychologist or psychiatrist (especially one familiar with OCD) can help evaluate whether what you're experiencing is scrupulosity or something else.
Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy (CBT) + ERP: Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) is a common therapy for OCD, including scrupulosity.
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Psychoeducation: Learning about scrupulosity and intrusive thoughts can help you recognize that having a thought does not make you a “bad” person.
Religious Counseling (if needed): Sometimes, combining mental health support with trusted religious guidance helps — someone who understands both faith and mental health dynamics.
If I had to name the most likely condition based on your description, it would be scrupulosity (religious OCD).
If you like, I can point you to resources in India / Punjab (or online) for help. Do you want me to do that?

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